Mother's Day is coming!

I know it has been quite some time since I've posted. Nothing really new going on, except Brynlee is starting to test EVERYTHING that we say! It is very funny, but after months of talking about how we were going to parent and Andrew being extremely stern on letting her cry things out and not giving in.....he does just that! I know that he just wants to make her happy when he is home so he will do whatever she wants. BUT I am not fond of that at all, because then, the next day I am the bad cop by not letting her do what she got to do the night before! Oh dear! What a good dad, right?! No really, he is the best dad ever! Just can't do everything to please a 16 month old!

My reason for even getting on here now is to express my appreciation for my mom! With Mother's Day coming and a very busy next couple of days, I thought this would be a perfect time! It will be 6 months tomorrow that I got the phone call that changed my life for the forever. I guess the best way to describe it is that feeling you get when you think about the unthinkable, the phone call you try to prepare yourself for, BUT is completely impossible. When I got off the phone with Dad I drove to my aunt Tami's so she could drive me to Peoria. I cried and prayed the whole way. I wanted SO bad to call someone, but who would understand...or who would understand me behind all the tears and sniffles? Well my point is, I got a taste of what life could have been like without my mom. I imagined it for days trying to make sense of it and prepare myself for the worst. I even collected thoughts on how I would describe her to Brynlee. It makes me sick to even think about! I tried to play my life in fast forward, I thought about all the holidays, Tanner's graduation, Tanner's wedding, someday more pregnancies (who would I share that with, who would go to appointments, who would spoil the child rotten before he/she was even here (haha), who are earth would I go to for advice?) Brynlee's first birthday was coming and I was scared to death that she wouldn't be there....she was there to rub my back during all of those awful contractions, but she possibly wouldn't be there to celebrate her first birthday, or for that matter her 2nd, 3rd, 4th....and so on. Lucky for me, God didn't take her! We have an incredible relationship so I knew we didn't need to mend things up, but God gave her more time to be a Mom and a Meme. For that, I praise God everyday. I would be a different person without you Mom and I just can't thank God enough for making you my mom. You are INCREDIBLE and I thank you from the bottom of my heart for EVERYTHING you have taught me, have done, and continue to do for my little family and me. Although, I knew and thought all of this before November 6th, I have a different appreciation. I am so thankful for these life lessons, no matter how hard they are.
I love you Mom! Happy almost Mother's Day!